A while back I had the domain ceruleansoul.com which I bought to be my web design domain, and my “main hub”. I chose that because a poem that I had written at the time.

Cerulean Soul
I have these places spaces
Where my mind is cerulean
In amongst the haze collision
Of a thousand other moments
Planes of memory falling bawling
Mediocre minuscule
Only striving for the testament
With you.
December 28, 2004.

Last year, when I was scrabbling to come up with a name change from “amithecat” which we could all tolerate and wasn’t just a name that one or two of us liked or were represented in I came up with the idea of Echoes, because it’s plural and also because we’re all Echoes. We’re reflections of past and future lives, and also in certain respects we’re each reflections of a portion of the whole who was there before. We may consider ourselves separate “people” but we are kind of…not whole. We sort of have certain traits which are amplified and others which are neglected, because of “functions” or things like that.

The poem came back to me but slightly differently, and it’s what Ami used in the header when she made the original layout and this one.

Cerulean Echo
I am a cerulean echo of
the place that once was
Shattered upon the spaces
where someone used to be
Bend the world around me
Broken on the shores
I wash up with the tide
and find balance once more.
10th December 2007

So, hence we are “Cerulean Echoes”.

Ami was finally able to sort out a nifty way to use the picture that we commissioned from DuskFire Art so we now have it here and on our livejournal, although slightly different on each, but the same theme.

Things are looking good, even if we do say so ourselves.

I’m hoping to write more here from now on, but I make no promises, it’s so easy for blogs to get forgotten and fall by the way side. We’re hoping now that we only have three it might be a bit easier (although that’s not strictly true if you count the livejournal and the insanejournal).

Tomorrow is therapy day. We haven’t had therapy in two weeks because our therapist was on vacation. Last time we had therapy she said she would perhaps like to talk to Debbi who seems to be connected with the Littles or that she would like to talk to those who voluntarily left when we found out that we were pregnant because she wonders if they’re the reason that I have such issues with anger. But I don’t know. I think perhaps I will let Kiddy out so that she can dress in a way that she’s comfortable and maybe that will help for her to talk to the therapist…but I can’t be sure. She’s the only one that I think might remotely feel up to talking to the therapist…

Then also we’ve had some issues this past week because a close friend lost a relative to suicide, and things have been very glitchy, so maybe that will come up. Some times I wish the sessions lasted longer than an hour.

I’ve finally stopped hedging and imported the posts from Centuries Old and Still a Work in Progress into this one, and am preparing to shut it down. If you know anyone interested in purchasing miriel.org or eryssa.net for that matter you can contact Ami through ami-chan.net DESIGNS and negotiate things there. We’d just like to see the domains put to good use.

This means that also we’re hoping to be able to start work on other things to do with this blog that we’ve been hoping to write about, such as reviewing the “Field Guide to Otherkin,” although we really have to finish that first, and also working on the “Otherkin Aware” portion of the site that we’ve been knocking around for quite some time.

We still need to redo the layout here.

We’ve been having some issues because it’s become really stifling to write on our other blog…the personal blog which actually posts pictures and does most of our review work and all the rest of it. There’s a good chunk of us who want to be able to explain about the multiplicity there it would be easier to write about things then…but it’s a big step. There’s the possibility that relatives of ours and our significant other read that blog and they haven’t been told about my diagnosis…and that could make things awkward and I don’t want to do that…

This layout will probably not be permanent but I do love it very much and it’s happy circumstance that I came across it after helping a friend find one for her blog. This one is by the same “author” or perhaps artist is a better term.

Anyhow, welcome to the blog. We’ll do a more formal “who’s who” as a page, but suffice it to say there’s going to be a wide variety of psychological and spiritual topics covered here, and there’s going to be a variety of authors as well, but only one username.

Why? if that doesn’t answer it here’s the straightforward explanation. The author is a multiple. She has multiple personalities. This blog is not some strange treatise on how the author survived the Michael Keaton movie “Multiplicity“, it’s about how she and her family and friends, and head-space residents deal with day to day life.

Still here? That’s really cool. I’d love to hear from you and your alters if you have them.

Well, I’ve made it through the first month almost. We’ll see how things go from here.

I’m still adjusting to my new status in many respects; tomorrow is my third appointment with the therapist/counselor person. I’ve been semi-faithfully keeping up with the offline handwritten journal to show her how different aspects communicate with each other, we’ll see what her suggestions are for finding balance.

I’m going to try and write in here at least once a week. I had thought about trying for twice a week, or once a month, but both those seemed unfeasible for various reasons. I want to keep up with this place, but I don’t want it to feel like a chore. I want to have time to conjugate my thoughts properly and I want to be able to write well and consistently.

In the beginning I can see that I’ll easily be able to write more than once a week. I’ve got a few things that I had posted before that I’m going to re-write and explain a bit more about and also some other ideas running hither and thither through my head, the challenge is going to be keeping up with this into April and May and beyond, but I feel good about this again, and I have a more distinct purpose in mind also.

Well, this is it here for the time being I’m going to put a little bit into the F.A.Q. and get that on the go.